During my annual soul transforming journey these last couple months (BTW: a huge reason I have not been very social or on here much)..I am very proud of the lessons I have learned, the doors I have closed, the wounds I have healed, the priorities I have fixed & the self love that I have found!
After years of being a lover of God, mother, wife, step mother, friend, daughter, sister, aunt, granddaughter, in-law ,teacher, mentor, peacemaker, people pleaser, & caretaker (and yes, at times, I’ve been selfish), I have discovered that my focus was distorted & I lost “myself” along the way! But my strength, lessons & faith were abundant! Although, this is a life long journey, and I still have much I need to work on, I am proud of my journey thus far!
I HAVE LEARNED…..
- that I need to take care of & love myself first, so I can love & help others well,
- to let go & let God,
- to enjoy life more,
- who I matter to & who I don’t,
- that it is okay to say no or to speak my mind (gently),
- that I need to set boundaries & teach people how to treat me,
- that I need to expect less of myself & others,
- what is well for my soul,
- that I shouldn’t sweat the little stuff, but the little things do mean so much,
- that some people lie or are selfish & not all people are kind…but oh, there are so many that are,
- that not everyone I love or help will appreciate or reciprocate it, but so many will (And, oh, how I cherish them),
- that not everyone deserves or needs an explanation because some only hear what they want & they don’t respect my opinion or feelings anyhow,
- that I need to spend less time online & more time with the people I love & doing things that I enjoy,
- that I do not need validation or acceptance from social media or other people, just from God,
- that I cannot save the world, but I can mean the world to someone,
- that some people just won’t like me or will be envious & will judge everything I do, but that is okay & it is their problem..not mine,
- that most of the time actions do speak louder than words,
- that every mistake comes with a lesson,
- that the past needs to stay in the past in order to move forward, but to remember the lessons I have learned & to guard my heart!
I choose to trust & love God first (for He carried me in my worst & darkest moments), to surround myself only with happiness, to always count my blessings, to make time for people who make time for me, and to help when I am able ღ
I am who I am & I can only be the best me I can & if that’s not good enough for some people, TOUGH, then it is THEIR LOSS, because this is about me & not them!
Job 23:10 “But he knows where I am going. And when he tests me, I will come out as pure as gold.
I feel extremely blessed for all the people that choose to love & stand by me (for we all know that is not always an easy feat..lol) & I am beyond grateful for who & what I have ღ
Moving on to step 2 🙂
